Today is beautiful. Today, the adoption of a little boy that has stolen my heart (along with everybody else's) is finalized. Although he's not my son, this little man has taught me more than I could ever fathom about God's most true and perfect love for us.
The very first time I met Little Man, he stole my heart. I loved everything about him, even though he was screaming in the middle of my "grown-up talk" with his mom in Starbucks. I want the best for him, I want to protect him, and I want him to be successful.
I now that I'm not exactly a great writer by any means, nor am I a great theologian, but today, reflecting upon the finalized adoption, I better realized my relationship with God. From the moment He thought of me, He loved me. Even though I sin and fall short and break his heart, He loves me. He has a plan for my life that is greater than anything that I could ever dream up on my own. He wants the best for me, and he has the best for me. He wants to forever have a relationship with me, and He is fighting for me and will not let me go or slip away easily.
Little Man, 3 days shy of his first birthday, has shown me this. I never expected to learn through "demonstration", if you could call it that. I was looking to learn and better understand through prayer and Bible study. But I am so thankful that God chose to show me this way. It has left me newly broken over sin, and with a stronger heart for Him than ever before. This understanding, although hard, is also healing. It heals my loneliness. It draws me close. And it brings me Home.
Thank you, Little Man, for teaching me what I've been desperately wanting to learn for so long. I love you, and I am so thankful to be a part of your life. Miss Emily loves you.